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Emotionally older

Turning 28 has been an eye opener for me. It is a little interesting how the past month I have been asking myself a lot of questions about life and realizing I am an adult…and have been for a while. It is interesting to me. I have thought of myself as an adult for many years but this past month, for some reason, has brought it all home. I am an adult. What have I done with my life this far? Am I satisfied with it? Am I really ready to be starting a family of my own?

Birthday’s are always a time to contemplate life, but for some reason, I took that seriously this year. I have been evaluating how things are going, how much I tend to slack off sometimes, what has helped bring me to this point, and what has held me back from getting to this point sooner. I have been working through a lot of shit from the past in regards to being adopted and not necessarily having the best childhood but it seems to be helping. Finally being able to look at the big picture has made me happy. It is nice to be able to start to put the past in its place, and to work into the future with a better sense of who I am. Is this normal to be trying to figure out now? I don’t know. I guess I don’t really care since who knows what normal really is.

I am sure I could ramble more but time to be responsible and get some work done this morning. I have been on a roll thus far, don’t want to stop now.

Bzzz.reorg.

I woke up crabby this morning. Went to bed with too much on my mind, woke up with even more running through my head. Crabbed my way in on the train, not really wanting to talk about anything. Walked down Charles Street instead of through the Common and as I got to the Public Gardens, I thought to myself, what am I doing? Where the hell am I going? Why am I wasting even more time in life?

I walked around the pond, enjoying the sun bouncing off the water, taking my time to enjoy the sights like I had been doing up until a months or so ago. I just realized I have been worrying so much about everything, the house, work, being able to legally stay married, that it all has gone by and yet again, it is almost fall and what I accomplished this summer? Have I been busy? Yes. Have I enjoyed myself? Some. Have I gained weight? Yes. What does it all add up to? Nothing.

I want to stop and smell the roses but it is almost as if I need to plan to do it. It is hard how conscious you have to be of what is going on in life in order to make sure you appreciate it and enjoy it. I took a three day weekend this past weekend and it was nice, not doing much but not spending the entire weekend watching tv. It was productive, not as much as I wanted but it was nice. Here it Monday again and my brain wont turn off to relax for a minute. How do I stop it? Well, I am blogging this morning. Maybe if I get more stuff down instead of just ignoring it, that might help. We shall see.

I guess I am in the midst of one of those moments where I have to clear something out of my head. Do a little house keeping and reorder the priorities. The hard part is trying to figure out what they are. House renovations, baby, job, vacation….I am sure it goes on and on. The question is where to start and where to stop. I feel like it is not a bad start this morning, let’s see if I can keep it up.

It is dead!

The amendement to amend the state constitution in Mass. is dead! Lawmakers just voted at the consitutional convention, 157-39 to NOT pass it. Happy day in Mass.

Yeah!