Emotionally older

Turning 28 has been an eye opener for me. It is a little interesting how the past month I have been asking myself a lot of questions about life and realizing I am an adult…and have been for a while. It is interesting to me. I have thought of myself as an adult for many years but this past month, for some reason, has brought it all home. I am an adult. What have I done with my life this far? Am I satisfied with it? Am I really ready to be starting a family of my own?

Birthday’s are always a time to contemplate life, but for some reason, I took that seriously this year. I have been evaluating how things are going, how much I tend to slack off sometimes, what has helped bring me to this point, and what has held me back from getting to this point sooner. I have been working through a lot of shit from the past in regards to being adopted and not necessarily having the best childhood but it seems to be helping. Finally being able to look at the big picture has made me happy. It is nice to be able to start to put the past in its place, and to work into the future with a better sense of who I am. Is this normal to be trying to figure out now? I don’t know. I guess I don’t really care since who knows what normal really is.

I am sure I could ramble more but time to be responsible and get some work done this morning. I have been on a roll thus far, don’t want to stop now.