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Oh well,

It is that time of year, we are all super busy, eating way too much food, and trying to make sure our pants don't split...at least that is what I am doing. Work is super busy but I am hoping to do a real post soon since this is the one year anniversary month of the blog...not that I have been very good about posting, never mind about the point of the blog, which was to get me writing more. I do hope to start making more progress in this arena, even as i am getting more busy at work.

Starting with this post, Let's see what I can do for the next few weeks and we'll see if this continues.

Halloween

So here it is Halloween and it has got us thinking about Trick-or-Treating and what we will do with our child. It is sad to think back that when we were children we walked around the neighborhood to every house and got pillowcases full of candy. Now, as adults, we live in a neighborhood and just manage to get a handfull of kids. Not that I blame parents for the lack of kids, why has society gotten so dangerous that this once fun activity is no more?

On top of it, a school in Massachusetts has just put a stop to all Halloween activities at school (one of the only safe places for it now a days) because we have become too PC. I understand the rationale behind the decision but what ever happened to letting kids be kids? Should kids get taught about diversity, religions, and other things that make us different? Of course. But shouldn't they also be taught to have fun, enjoy life, and be yourself?

Just thoughts to ponder on a Monday morning.

Happy Halloween.

Today

Today is another day of cloudy skys and rain. Thank goodness we have not had as much rain as in southern NH. 11" in 24 hours. Ouch! We remained relatively dry despite the heavy rain here. No global warming huh?

Sunday nights have been tough as of the last month or so. I end up watching TV, lying in bed, just thinking and dredding about work. I am not sure why or if it is work per say. Sunday night rolls around and my head just starts up. I could be tired all day but come 7 o'clock, my brain clicks in all the things I did not get done this past weekend, all the things I want to do, what my day is going to be like at work....Last week the hubby had had enough and told me to relax. To enjoy what I have and not what I don't have. But sometimes it is more than that.

I feel like I have been rembling a lot lately. Thoughts flying in and out of my head faster than I can control them. What to do? Who knows. I am trying to take it one thing at a time but sometimes it just does not work. today is not too bad. Trying to get some work done and trying not too think about all I would prefer to be doing (or not doing--movies, couch, rainy weather). We shall see how the rest of the day goes.

On a better note, started WW again but have yet to shed any weight. Not much to go but enough to try and start shrinking the portion sizes again. Hopefully back to the gym this afternoon.

Something I need to do more

Last night as I was preparing for another hectic week, my husband told me I was too stressed and need to relax. So with that in mind:
REDUCE YOUR STRESS
1 SNUGGLE WITH A SIGNIFICANT OTHER 2 LAUGH 3 DO A HANDSTAND 4 CRY 5 GO SKY DIVING 6 TAKE A NAP 7 MAKE A TO DO LIST 8 LOOK AT OLD PHOTO ALBUMS 9 COLOR IN A COLORING BOOK 10 MAKE SNOW ANGELS 11 SIT ON A ROCK AND BLOW BUBBLES 12 ROCK CLIMB 13 LIE IN THE MIDDLE OF A GRASSY MEADOW 14 PAINT A PICTURE 15 WATCH A DRYER SPIN 16 MAKE RICE KRISPIE TREATS 17 WATCH A SUNSET 18 GIVE A HUG 19 WRITE IN YOUR JOURNAL 20 JUMP IN A LEAF PILE 21 RECEIVE A HUG 22 EAT M&MS 23 GIVE YOURSELF A FACIAL 24 WRITE DOWN TEN THINGS YOU ARE HAPPY ABOUT 25 SERENADE YOURSELF 26 TAKE A DEEP BREATH 27 STARE AT THE MOON 28 LISTEN TO SOFT MUSIC 29 SQUISH WARM MUD BETWEEN YOUR TOES 30 KNEAD DOUGH 31 BUY SOME NEW CLOTHES 32 WORK OUT 33 READ THE COMICS 34 FINGER PAINT 35 TAKE A WALK 36 DRINK A WARM GLASS OF MILK 37 MAKE A PAPER CLIP CHAIN 38 TAKE A SHOWER 39 TALK TO YOUR PLANTS 40 RECITE NURSERY RHYMES 41 TEASE YOUR HAIR 42 FIGURE OUT WHAT TIME IT IS IN ANOTHER PART OF THE WORLD 43 DRAW A PICTURE 44 SKIP ROCKS INTO THE OCEAN 45 DO ORIGAMI 46 WATCH CARTOONS 47 TALK TO CHILDREN 48 COUNT YOUR FRECKLES 49 PUNCH A PILLOW 50 TRY TO DETERMINE IF YOUR GENES ARE DOMINANT OR RECESSIVE 51 TRY SOMETHING NEW 52 TALK TO A FRIEND 53 LIE DOWN, CLOSE YOUR EYES, AND FOCUS ON THE PROBLEM 54 GET A MESSAGE 55 DANCE TO MUSIC 56 PLAY CARDS 57 SWAP A HUG 58 EAT HEALTHY 59 PEOPLE WATCH 60 THROW DARTS 61 VISIT THE SICK OR ELDERLY 62 WATCH CHILDREN PLAY 63 SWING ON A SWING 64 DRAW A PICTURE 65 EAT A HOT FUDGE SUNDAE 66 GO HIKING 67 GO SLEDDING 68 READ A POEM 69 PLAY A VIDEO GAME 70 GET A MAKEOVER 71 WRITE A CRAZY STORY 72 LOOK IN THE MIRROR AND TRY TO DRAW A SELF-PORTRAIT 73 CALL HOME 74 BUY FLOWERS FOR YOURSELF 75 EAT AN APPLE OR AN ORANGE 76 TAKE A LONG DRIVE IN THE COUNTRY 77 WHISTLE 78 START NEEDLEPOINT 79 ADD FOOD COLORING TO YOUR FOOD 80 FIND OUT HOW MANY LICKS IT TAKES TO GET TO THE CENTER OF A TOOTSIE ROLL POP 81 LISTEN TO THE BIRDS 82 BAKE COOKIES 83 LEARN YOGA 84 BE YOURSELF 85 SURF THE NET 86 GO OUT FOR COFFEE 87 RENT A MOVIE 88 WRITE A LETTER 89 SING ALONG WITH YOUR FAVORITE SONG FROM THE EIGHTIES 90 RE-READ YOUR FAVORITE BOOK 91 START A COLLECTION 92 SEE A THEATRE SHOW 93 TAKE A DAY TRIP 94 GO TO THE BEACH 95 SURPRISE A FRIEND YOU HAVEN'T TALKED TO IN A LONG TIME 96 BLOG 97 PAY A TOLL FOR THE PERSON BEHIND YOU 98 PLAN AN EXPENSIVE VACATION 99 SAVE FOR AN EXPENSIVE VACATION 100 GO ON YOUR EXPENSIVE VACATION 101 TAKE AN HOUR LONG BUBBLE BATH 102 HAVE A WATER BALLOON FIGHT WITH SOME FRIENDS 103 EAT CAKE 104 SMILE

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Emotionally older

Turning 28 has been an eye opener for me. It is a little interesting how the past month I have been asking myself a lot of questions about life and realizing I am an adult…and have been for a while. It is interesting to me. I have thought of myself as an adult for many years but this past month, for some reason, has brought it all home. I am an adult. What have I done with my life this far? Am I satisfied with it? Am I really ready to be starting a family of my own?

Birthday’s are always a time to contemplate life, but for some reason, I took that seriously this year. I have been evaluating how things are going, how much I tend to slack off sometimes, what has helped bring me to this point, and what has held me back from getting to this point sooner. I have been working through a lot of shit from the past in regards to being adopted and not necessarily having the best childhood but it seems to be helping. Finally being able to look at the big picture has made me happy. It is nice to be able to start to put the past in its place, and to work into the future with a better sense of who I am. Is this normal to be trying to figure out now? I don’t know. I guess I don’t really care since who knows what normal really is.

I am sure I could ramble more but time to be responsible and get some work done this morning. I have been on a roll thus far, don’t want to stop now.

Bzzz.reorg.

I woke up crabby this morning. Went to bed with too much on my mind, woke up with even more running through my head. Crabbed my way in on the train, not really wanting to talk about anything. Walked down Charles Street instead of through the Common and as I got to the Public Gardens, I thought to myself, what am I doing? Where the hell am I going? Why am I wasting even more time in life?

I walked around the pond, enjoying the sun bouncing off the water, taking my time to enjoy the sights like I had been doing up until a months or so ago. I just realized I have been worrying so much about everything, the house, work, being able to legally stay married, that it all has gone by and yet again, it is almost fall and what I accomplished this summer? Have I been busy? Yes. Have I enjoyed myself? Some. Have I gained weight? Yes. What does it all add up to? Nothing.

I want to stop and smell the roses but it is almost as if I need to plan to do it. It is hard how conscious you have to be of what is going on in life in order to make sure you appreciate it and enjoy it. I took a three day weekend this past weekend and it was nice, not doing much but not spending the entire weekend watching tv. It was productive, not as much as I wanted but it was nice. Here it Monday again and my brain wont turn off to relax for a minute. How do I stop it? Well, I am blogging this morning. Maybe if I get more stuff down instead of just ignoring it, that might help. We shall see.

I guess I am in the midst of one of those moments where I have to clear something out of my head. Do a little house keeping and reorder the priorities. The hard part is trying to figure out what they are. House renovations, baby, job, vacation….I am sure it goes on and on. The question is where to start and where to stop. I feel like it is not a bad start this morning, let’s see if I can keep it up.